Skidmas and New Years

Skidmas was fuckin awesome. What's Skidmas? Well first of all I'm back in Mtl and Skidmas is a party that went down at Rainbow's house it 'twas a themed party kinda since most people fall into the theme without having to try or dress up (or down). It's like a Christmas party/open mic for skids (read: punks, metal heads, and just marginal peeps). Super fun, making music in the dark, listening to poetry and generally being fun. There no dancing went down but I met some fun peeps. Including Vic. She asked me what I was doing for New Years and then suggested that we spend it together doing whatever was fun.
But before I even got to that we went dancing with her sister and their friends from NY at a club called Parking in the village. This of course resulted in of course dancing, then vic's sister and friends leaving, then us leaving and coming here (home), then us hanging out, then us um... yea...
For New Years we went to Vic's dad's house and ate a huge dinner and hung with family members and just chilled mostly. After ward we went back to Vic's sister's house and ended up staying inside for like 36 hours. It was fun and included watching night Night at the Roxbury but still that's just too much.
Left and walked home except I ran into Divo and we hung out and dumpstered a bit.
Got home and turns out Jer is getting home tonight and Banana is home already so now a bunch of us are here and Jer rolled in with some cool friends so I'm excited to chill with everyone and have a good time. I've been cooped up indoors for way to long time to go tear it up.

misinterpretation

Talking to Ithaca progressed as the day continued, it all seemed good until I got a poem from her, she wrote it herself.
Some context, after explaining the story of everything that happened with me and Ithaca to Barracuda I kinda realized that I had been in an abusive relationship, I didn't want to call it such, because I didn't want to be a survivor, I didn't want to call Ithaca a perpetrator. I guess I knew it but just didn't want to admit it to myself, anyways what happened happened, can't change the past...
Anyways, back to the poem, it was basically Ithaca saying that she was abusive mostly, but a small part explained how she coped with treating me badly; by viewing me badly and the way it was described was way more than I could take. I took it as a personal attack and felt really shitty, I went to Banana (a roomie of mine) and cried and told her about it, and she's the one that made me see that it wasn't written with malicious intent (Ithaca hadn't explained this to me and didn't want to talk about it...) it made less shitty feeling.
I told Ithaca my new interpretation in an email, I hope it's correct and she didn't see me as a disgusting person...